Thursday, April 28, 2011

Wednesday, April 27, 2011


I go back to work tomorrow as schedule with full pay for all the time I was suppose to work. Woohoo!
I was worried about them being unjust, but if they followed the evidence there was no other conclusion but to reinstate me. I'm glad it is over. However, I feel tainted by this experience and will continue to search for employment elsewhere. At least now I can do it with a paycheck coming in. And I don't have to worry my parents with this nonsense.

Still Unknown

Apparently I'm still suspended pending further investigation. I checked the online schedule for work, I've been removed till next Tuesday. I've called Human Resources twice this morning and left messages. No one has yet returned my calls. I was originally scheduled to go in at 2pm today. I hate being in limbo. I know we have a mitigation policy in place at work, so trying to sue the company should the outcome of this be unfavorable, is out of the question. However, I can sue the individuals I feel is responsible personally. I have yet to apprise my parents of this situation. I didn't want to stress them out with all that is going on with my Father this week. After he gets the results Thursday, I may have to, like it or not.

I remember in Business Law class, there was something mentioned about past performance being a benchmark in settling disputes. Not sure if it applies in this circumstance, but it seems to me, it I have done said thing, and everyone else has done said thing, repeatedly, with documentation submitted to whoever handle the media portion of the stuff we turn in at the end of the day, then there is a precedent set. If it were wrong, why was it not caught or brought to our attention before now? I won't even mention the embarrassment factor to all this on top of the economic hardship it will cause to me or my parents should another job not be quickly forthcoming.
I have learned that three other people have been interviewed but not suspended. There are others which have yet to be interviewed. I want to feel good about this outcome, but I don't. I feel like a scapegoat. The Loss Prevention guy told me I was "one of the good guys." If that is the case then why not a reprimand instead of being suspended? I feel I've done nothing wrong. I didn't hide it from anyone. Why would I if I was trained that way? All I can do is polish up the resume and start applying again. In fact I already have. I hope this go round, it doesn't take two years.
(Once this issue is settled, I will explain in greater detail).

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

Monday, April 25, 2011


There is so much on my mind this morning. So many things going on, none of it any good and all of it worrisome. My father's CT scan is this morning. He will go Thursday to get the results. I just hope the spots/tumors/cancer/whatever they want to call it is unchanged. Better news would be it is gone entirely, but I doubt that is the case. He stays on oxygen just about all the time now. He is weak and worn down. I can see it in his eyes and demeanor. His stamina is gone. Even the smallest exertion wears him out and leaves him gasping. He's still hanging in there though.
The other thing is my job. I may or may not have one as of today. I was suspended Saturday. This morning I'm suppose to call Human Resources to find out if I can return to work or not. I'm waiting for them to get there. I've called and left a message already this morning, even though I know she wouldn't be in yet. I've already updated my resume and actually applied for other jobs yesterday, just in case. It appears that a common practice in my former department was not common after all. Everyone in it was doing it. I was trained that way. I had no idea it was wrong. It isn't as grievous as it sounds, but enough to warrant Loss Prevention to get involved. I honestly don't know what to think. I certainly don't think it justifies being suspended or terminated. I'll just have to wait and see how it goes today.
I want to talk to Tommy so bad it is killing me. I miss him, his friendship. I don't want to let go of that. I can live with being friends, even if no romance is involved. I genuinely like him despite his issues. He is still a good guy. I just have no idea what to say or do now. That remains a worry. Hopefully it will work itself out in some form.

Friday, April 22, 2011

To all my followers, have a safe and happy weekend!

Friday, April 15, 2011

Open To Interpretation

Tommy just posted this on his Facebook wall: "The worse feeling is being forgotten by someone you will never forget." I had decided to ignore him today like he has done for the past 14 days since the "event". He has posted more on Twitter and Facebook today than he ever has. I didn't "like" or comment or reply on almost 30 post today. Maybe it's me being vain or just wishful thinking, but I felt that was aimed at me (given only a handful of his friends actually interact with him on Facebook). I responded, "I know the feeling." He responded, finally(since he hasn't in forever), "Thanks, heading to bed." At this point any type of a romantic involvement is off the table. I went through this crap with my ex and will not go through it again. If he wants to be friends, I have no problem with that. I now know how he his and what to expect. Of course, it could have been aimed at his Wisconsin buddy, who knows (though I don't believe any on his friends list are currently living in Wisconsin).

As you may have noticed, I have signed up for AdSense. Gonna give it a try and see how it goes.

Thursday, April 7, 2011

Win Some, Lose Some

Apparently a rich Colt model in Wisconsin was searching for a middle aged Catholic bodybuilder on the East Coast. Either that or Tommy is lying to me. Needless to say, it doesn't appear that we will be moving toward anything. Not even sure about friendship, seeing as how he has not communicated with me or shown up for work the last two times he was scheduled, since he dropped that tidbit of information when we went out last Friday night. I've debated on whether to post about it and how to do so for almost a week. This is what I came up with. I guess I misread the signals, though they seemed pretty clear to me. My life will continue with or without him. I'm sadden. I'm disappointed. I'm hurt. I'll get over it and move on. I wish him well. End of story. On to something new.

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

There is good in the bad. Even in despair there is hope. Open your heart, soul and mind. Thereafter, you will see all the possibilities. ~ Ultra Dave

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Monday, April 4, 2011

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Saturday, April 2, 2011

It's Offical

My mother called me Thursday afternoon at work. My father has lung cancer. She says she told me, but she did not. They always called it spots or tumors, never cancer. I felt like I was punched in the gut. I wanted to cry, but didn't. I have no idea what stage it is in. I guess I should have figured it out from all the doctor's visits and treatments. I can't believe she mentioned it so casually, like she was talking about his eye color or something. I'm kinda stunned but not surprised. I'm shaken a bit by it. I knew his other problems were serious, but this adds a whole knew dimension to the worry.

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