Giving Thanks

This will be the first Thanksgiving without my father around. Ten months have passed and it still doesn't seem real. I'm thankful that he suffered little before his passing. I'm thankful that he was interested in my life and who I was as person. I'm thankful that he cared enough to teach me meaningful skills to carry with me through my life. I thankful he was there whenever and for whatever I needed. I'm thankful that my parents managed to stay together for 55 years. I thankful for so many conversations about the important things in life and the trivial. I'm thankful of all the wanna be fathers out there I could have wound up with, that I was adopted by him and my mother. I'm thankful that my parents gave so much of themselves in raising me and my sister, to make us who we are today. I'm thankful for having such loving parents to call my own.

I'm thankful for the job at Macy's when I so desperately needed one after two years of searching. I'm thankful even for the low pay and screwy schedules as they have help be become less wasteful with my time and money. I thankful that through Macy's I'm made 3 incredible friendships; Tommy, Theresa and Jessica.

I'm thankful for the horrible periods in my life I've endured and rose above. I'm thankful for friendships that have extended from my childhood  into adulthood. I thankful for my health and the drive to improve my body, my mind and my spirit. I'm thankful that I've even got to have sex a few times this year.

I'm thankful for having transportation. I'm thankful for having a roof over my head. I'm thankful for my dog, Izzy, who loves me unconditionally. I'm thankful I kept my smaller clothes. I'm thankful for a cheap gym to join. I'm thankful for family I rarely get to see, but are there when you really need them.

I'm just thankful period. I may not have it all, but I have what I need when I need it.