Thursday, December 31, 2009
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
2010 will mark a new decade. I seriously hope that it will be much better than the first in this new century. On a wider front, than just my personal stage, the world has experience some major crap itself. The Boxing Day tsunami, 9-11, the ensuing wars abroad, the Wall Street meltdown, the recession, Bush, the Birthers, Teabaggers, all the hateful groups against civil rights, Palin, the scandals, and the collapse of the GOP. This first decade was a doozy. It has left a bad taste in my mouth. Even the election of Obama and a few states joining the more enlightened places on the planet can't help alleviate the bitter after taste this decade leaves behind.
I sincerely hope for all the readers of my little ole blog, that 2010 is much better for all of us. Not just in the blog universe, but the world as well. That peace and truth will triumph over all the lies and violence. That we will once again be prosperous and employed. That wisdom and intellect will replace dogma and fear. I hope that every dream is realized for you. That every hope is made manifest. That you have the fortitude to see you through what ever may lie ahead of you this coming year. And that love, peace and joy accompany you ever step of the way.
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
Monday, December 28, 2009
- Am I the only guy that watches porn with the sound off?
- Have you ever walked into a crowded room and wondered how many feet of dick surrounds you?
- Have you ever wondered why certain couples were together ?What was the attraction?
- Am I the only one that wishes they had X-ray vision?
- Am I the only one that doesn't understand the gay fascination with straight acting or supposedly gay for pay porn?
Sunday, December 27, 2009
Saturday, December 26, 2009
- I'm a romantic at heart. I love to be wooed. Come on too strong, and I'll resist.
- I always think the best of people, give the benefit of the doubt, until either proven wrong or it's too late.
- I trust easily and I'm often disappointed because of it.
- I have a wicked, twisted sense of humor. I love to laugh and love to make people laugh.
- My last true vacation, not unemployment, was in March 1989, to visit my best friend who moved to Tampa FL. I moved there in April.
- Some of my deepest hurts and disappointments have come from family and friends. I always forgive them, but never forget it, though I never mention it.
- Some of my deepest joys and triumphs have been with the same family and friends.
- If I like you, I consider you a friend always, whether we speak daily or years from now.
- Both loves of my life, were love at first sight. I still have very fond memories of both.
- I'm not as arrogant or conceited as most people think I am when we first meet.
- I'm very loyal and trust worthy. If I can do something for someone, I will.
- People tell me all sorts of secrets. I never repeat them. Maybe I should have been a bartender or therapist.
- I have had some very dark depressive episodes in my life. They fade, but not till much damage is done. Then I spend a year or more rebuilding my life.
- I'm very proud of my small town roots. They have shaped my values and who I am as a person.
- The most I ever weighted was 252 pounds, about 18 months ago. Now I'm down to 192. I hope to lose about 20 pounds more.
- I was in the best shape of my life when I was in my late 30's. I weighted 175. Had a 31 inch waist, a 44 inch chest and 10% body fat. I long for that again.
- I enjoy music. I love it. It soothes me and helps get me out of my head for a while.
- I have an IQ of 113. I hoped it was more. Guess I'm smarter than some and dumber than others.
- I like all types of guys. I'm drawn most to the stereotypical tall, dark and handsome ones. If they aren't funny and smart, forget it.
- I adore my family, my friends, my dog and my life. I think I'm very fortunate to have lived it thus far.
- How to attract the attention of someone you are crushing on? It seems I've forgotten how to flirt, make friends, or otherwise engage other people.
- What makes my blog interesting? The pics, writing, or something else? Anything you would like to suggest?
- Are bad people born or created? Do they know they are bad?
- How do you tell if someone is just being nice or friendly or really interested in you? Are there signs to watch for? Is it possible to move from friendship to romance and how?
- Why is everything that is yummy and tasty, filled with so many calories?
Friday, December 25, 2009
Thursday, December 24, 2009
Over the last several years, that little group has disappeared. Many of them have passed away, no longer here to celebrate, others have moved away and started their own traditions. My ex and I split 10 years ago and thus far, my heart hasn't been claimed by another. I now sit at home, for many years alone and melancholy, remembering all the great times of Christmases past. Now I have my dog, Izzy, to keep me company. I use to watch the TV specials and have a drink to honor the tradition. Now, without cable TV, or a converter box, I sit at the computer, checking emails, looking at blogs, waiting for a status to change on Facebook so I can comment, or eagerly checking for comments on my blogs to pass the time.
A lot has changed over the years. I have changed, some for the good, some maybe not so much. I keep things in perspective. It will not always be this way. I just need to get through school, get a job so I can become social again, meet new people to hang with. Get the house built one day and settle in to a routine. I still have much to do. Yes, while it is a bit lonely sometimes, especially with no invites coming my way these days and no money to speak of to venture out, I know this will pass. I can't wait to unleash myself upon the world again. Until then, I'll do my living through Facebook and Blogger, while the night plays host to untold millions of children's fantasies, realizing that those are what make it bearable when you grow older and life takes unexpected turns.
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
At this time of the year, I often think about the approaching new year and what I hope it brings. Or at least what I can try to bring to fruition. This year is no different. This past year seems to have instigated some changes that will certainly carry forward. The first part of the year will be consumed with finishing up my Web Design Certificate, and maybe the start of another depending on the job market and other factors. I will continue to help my parents get things completed around their new place and ready the old place to put up for sale. There is still a shop to be built, a deck to add, a green house to move and all the landscaping for the back yard to be done. I personally still want to loose a few more pounds. Currently I'm at 192. I'd like to see that move lower to 170 or 175. Also, I like to get started working out again to tone up, provided I can make some space to get to the home gym in my spare bedroom. There is lots to do around my little place as well. That is a post in itself I think. Then sometime next year, I hope to get a job if the economy has improved. I'm hopefully that somehow it will all work out with all the other things that need to be done. And last, but not lest, I hope to start construction on my own place. While the tentative goal is to have it completed and moved into by the end of 2010, flexibility is key. I hate to push it back further, but given the odd real estate market, school, hopefully a job, and all left to do here and for my parents, it remains to be seen if we can squeeze in such a large project. I'll just have to see how everything else progresses through the year. Until all the other stuff is taken care of, I don't see me getting out and about much socially next year, though I will try to fit something in occasionally. That will limit my chances of meeting anyone I'm sure, but it would be one less complication in an otherwise overloaded calender. At this point, the to do list seems just as long as ever, but the items are certainly a bit more fun. It seems that 2010 will be another great year of change but one of some completion as well. I think it will turn out just swell!
Monday, December 21, 2009
Saturday, December 19, 2009
Friday, December 18, 2009
- New sweatpants and sweatshirts
- New flannel lounge pants
- The new Harry Potter DVD
- A job (hehe)
Told you it would be a short list.
Thursday, December 17, 2009
I have yet to find any solid, definitive answer. I know what the Bible in it's mutilated form says. I understand the concept of faith. I grasp the concept of free will. I believe there in lies the answers to those burning questions. If God intervenes every time, where does faith come in? There is a difference in knowing something and having faith in something. If free will exist for evil it must exist for good as well, and by extension, for every shade in between. Maybe it is more a case of evil being more convinced or embolden than those of truth and righteousness. Maybe it has come to the fact that not getting involved is believed to be right. The problem with that is where does one draw the line? Where does one decide that being quietly on the sidelines in a neutral position is no longer an option? If history is any indicator, it would seem that when evil is firmly established and becoming a personal threat. It would seem that evil has firmer faith in it's convictions than good.
Maybe our faith in God or some Higher Power to deliver us is to blame. The same thing that gives us strength also becomes our weakness. We fail to put our free will and our God given intellect to good use. Those are the unbeatable weapons against evil that God has given us. Instead, we prefer to be told what to do and when to do, than take responsibility and start it ourselves. Thankfully, there are those among us around the world that see it differently. And they are on the side of goodness, truth and righteousness. We call these people activist, liberals, and free thinkers. The history books are full of their stories. The ones that spoke out first, that raised the alarm, that got the ball rolling, that waited for the rest of us to reach the same conclusion that something had to be done. I, myself, am deeply thankful for them. I think more of us should join their ranks sooner, rather than later. The easiest way to be rid of a cancer is to catch it early and treat it aggressively and with tenacity. All acts of evil should be a call to arms and dealt with swiftly and harshly.
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
Monday, December 14, 2009
I need some sort of income, but yet still have to find the time to help my parents ready their house for market, build a shop for my father, move a greenhouse, and start construction on my place, all the while job hunting, taking more classes and hopefully, living some sort of life. It is really a catch 22. Something has to give, I just am not sure what. My parents can't help me out forever, nor can they spend big bucks to get everything in order by paying someone else big bucks to do it. I'm cheap labor. On the other hand, I need a job, but require real computer skills to land it. If I managed to find any job at all, it limits the time to do everything else. Everything impinges on something else. It's a convoluted mess. I'm stuck in the middle of it. Damned if I do, damned if I don't. I know it will work itself out. Everything will fall into place in it's own time. I just wish I could see it coming a bit more clearly.
Your Soul Is Connected to the Spring
You are an optimistic, eternally hopeful person. No matter how dark things get, you always see the light.
You are open-minded and always up for a fresh outlook on life. You don't cling to ideas or beliefs.
You are sweet hearted and have good intentions. Even though you've seen a lot in life, you remain innocent.
People see you as playful and even a bit airy. You feel free to be yourself, and that's a beautiful thing.