Over The Moon

Last night was a freakin' blast! I had the time of my life! (or really close to it) A group of my coworkers and I convened at a local gay bar for some frivolity. It turned into a very memorable evening. Body shots were done. Cavorting was done. More shots were done. Much drinking in between. Dancing ensued. (In a bar with no dance floor!)

Tommy, my friend/coworker partook of the fun. He surprised the shit out of me last night. I'm not subtle so I guess the hints finally hit home or it could have been the alcohol. Whatever it was, it was a great time for me. At Jessica's encouraging, he licked the sweat off the side my face while we were dancing! O Lord! How cool was that?! After more bumping, grinding and carrying on, with some interference briefly from someone else, not in out group, Jessica had to cockblock the dude by staying between us and him. Way to go girl! At one point, Tommy was grinding up against my backside. The next thing I know he wraps his arm tightly around my waist, and lifts me off the floor! I 'bout fainted from the rush! (He lifted with his legs not his back!) I was so shocked he could pick my fat ass up! Lord have mercy!!!
Every time I said I needed to leave, he said stay. I planned on leaving at 10:30 or 11. I left sometime after 1am. It was worth it too!!! Damn!

Not sure if it was alcohol induced or not and really don't care. I was over the freakin' moon! I had a shit eating grin on my face all day!

Bar @ 316 photos

A good time was had by all!!

Becoming Us

I like the way you make me laugh.

But love the silliness we share.

I like the twinkle in your eyes.

But love the mischievous grin that accompanies it.

I like the way you nonchalantly flex your biceps.

But I love that it is really for me.

I like the sparkle of your few grey hairs when they catch the light.

But love the way you deny having any.

I like the heat of your body when you're close to me.

But love the way you tease me without even being aware.

I like the way you smile when you see me.

But love the way I grin foolishly whenever I think of you.

But best of all, I love the way we are slowing becoming us.

Things I Like

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  Laughter


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  Sunshine


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  Friends


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  Family


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  Silliness


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  Animals


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  Good Deeds


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  Touch

Spread Your Light

There was something wicked in your laugh.

Enticing, leading me onward to places I'd never been.

Beside me you stood as confidant and guide.

Hand in hand, a wonder land we explored.

Memories we made, shared and cherished.

Nothing has has changed as much as us.

Separate ways, different callings, pulled us apart.

No regrets lease they tinge the experiences.

So now we stand apart, only wishing the best.

Go, spread your light upon the world.

Illuminate every corner you find.

Cheer every soul you meet.

And may the joyous bliss you give,

quickly become your own.

Too Cute

Happy Valentine's Day !

Bitter Party of One

Well, for the first time in 22 years of retail, I have the whole Valentine's weekend off and no one to share it with! Kinda sucks, but I'll have quality time with the dog.

Today I learned they are cutting a full time position in my department. Guess who will be leaving? The upside is they are moving me to a full time position is the home store and giving me a $1.05 and hour increase in pay to go. It was either that or go part time in jewelry. So in a couple of weeks I'll start the new position. I have sold that stuff before, so no biggy. I think I'll like it, though I'll miss the people up stairs. Life goes on and I still have a job. I'm thankful for that.

I really don't have much planned for the weekend. I may go to an event Monday night for single people on Valentine's day call the Bitter Party. It should be fun. I'll see what kind of mood I'm in that evening.

Otherwise, things seem to be going great. Of course, that worries me, because when it does, something usually happens to screw it up. I've actually managed to save some money and buy a few things as well as pay my bills.

Hope everyone has a wonderful Valentine's Day!!

Musing

I often think to myself. I wonder what choices could have been made that would have put me in a better place or circumstance. I try to figure out how to reach goals or realize dreams. It's a very consuming process for me. I plan. I revamp. I trudge onward. Sometimes there is a misstep. Sometimes I hit the mark. Most times though I feel as though I'm aimlessly drifting. Stuck in limbo. Close but so far away. I second guess. And it all starts again. Currently, I'm neither happy or sad about things in my life. My job. My family. My money. My relationship status. My friendships. I don't feel particularly strong one way or the other. I realize if I continue down this path, it will lead to depression once again. I just play on the internet for hours to distract myself. I play solitaire on the computer. I zone out petting the dog. The days seem insufferably long here lately. I have things to deal with like everyone else. For the most part, I'm equipped to deal with them. It doesn't keep them from being annoying or a nuisance or frustrating. It is what it is.
Things change. People change. Somehow I've even managed small evolutionary steps. I tend to go with flow most times. Just smile and nod and keep moving. I guess I'm looking for stimulation on a lot of different levels. I need to be challenged. I need to feel wanted. I need to be kept busy mentally and physically. Work is usually a bore, especially between holidays. My parents always have something to for me to do when I'm off, but that only last for a few hours. Friends fail to keep me engaged in a meaningful way. I'm just floundering around it seems. Waiting. Watching. Hoping. Things have improved, just not enough to my liking or at a fast enough pace. So here I sit typing about nothing to take up time, till I'm ready for bed. It will all start over tomorrow. The same shit, different day. Another day gone.