Amazing Beauty

Through my eyes, I wish you could see
The beauty that is you,
Never ending, amazing beauty
Your smile, your touch, your eyes

You say my name
The whispers of angels could be no sweeter.
The warmth of your embrace so dearly missed
So consuming when you are near.
Wrapped in your arms, so protected.

Just a glance my way and I'm defenseless.
Soulful eyes that gaze into mine.
Lost in you and I'm suddenly found.

Lingering kisses, lasting and sweet
Leaves me wide eyed and alive.
Just a touch and I quiver
My body becomes flushed with desire.
My soul on fire.

The never ending, amazing beauty
That is you.
Through my eyes, I wish you could see.

The beauty that is you.
Never ending, amazing beauty.

Your Love

I swim,
I crawl,
I elbow,
through the engulfing darkness called my life

I fight for what I believe in
I fight for what I want
a better me,
a better life
My battle cry of love, liberty, hope

I fight against the despair
the overwhelming sadness of a life gone awry
I languish,
I flounder

But ...
I don't give up
I won't give up
I can't give up

I can't do it without you
My rock,
My foundation
You give me strength
You give me shelter
You give me hope
You give me love

That is all  I need....
Your love.

"I don't fear change. I fear not changing." ~ Ultra Dave

Just Sayin'

"Too wise to be jaded and too optimistic to be desperate." ~ Ultra Dave

Just Saying

Effort + Consistency = Change
Effort + Mood = No Change

~ Ultra Dave

Just Sayin'

"Conscience is the slap in the back of the head when you know better. Karma is the kick in the ass when you did it anyway." ~ Ultra Dave

Grateful Things

Of many things I've lost
along the way to here
The good the bad the indifferent
gathered together in one place
Easy to chose
or hardest choices
Family and friends are tops
love can go either way
Health and financial gain meh
It the the hurt and hate I'm glad to see leave
The disappointments and charades
Anger and frustration get the boot too.
For all the living one does
some dying must happen as well
Everything ends so something new can begin
I'm grateful for things
both good and bad
happy and sad
It makes the now so much sweeter
and the future so much more to be cherished
Perfection comes from continuous refinement
My life to this point has been adding the polish
to this once rough diamond
All that has come to pass
has added facets to my chararcter
and personality
I don't have to be happy in the moment
But only know to be grateful for all things in the end.

Tombstone

Somewhere angels rejoice

A tear falls quietly on a pillow.

A sob is softly stifled.

The end of one journey

The beginning of another

Moments frozen in time

Etched in heart and mind

Nothing fleeting

Nothing ethereal
If I sat on your tombstone
Would you speak to me?

Scream

I scream inside
From anguish
of that which is now gone
Of frustration and loss
Easing temporarily
the pain
the suffering
the hurt
the vacancy in my heart

I scream inside
no lasting change
I still ache
I still long
I still need
No one rushes to my rescue
Nothing fills the void

I scream inside
till nothing is left
consumed by emptiness
my soul echoes with woe

Simple Wishes

At night I listen during daylight I look
Trying to find reason where none exist
Searching for clues though none are left
Something stirs
Something afoot
So close but just out of grasp
Almost palpable
Sometimes it flickers in your eyes
or can be heard in your voice
The undercurrent of our discourse
Amicable and sweet, melancholy and distant
An interesting mix waiting anxiously
Hoping for the anti visceral to be acted upon
For something, for anything, to click, to manifest
For the thing that will transform and propel
Simple wishes to grandiose dreams fulfilled.

Sometimes people go from what you want to what you need and getting there depends on the time you spend interacting with them. ~ Ultra Dave

"The only oppression hate groups of any stripe feel is the weight of their own ignorance and bigotry." ~ Ultra Dave

Tonight

Quiet wraps me like a tight hug.
In the still and the dark,
my thoughts are of you.
Memories cover me
like a warm, fuzzy blanket.
A content smile upon my lips.
I drift off to sleep,
wishing of dreams of you.
Hoping you will dream of me too.

I Didn't

I didn’t want to see you naked. I wanted to admire your masculine beauty.

I didn’t want to have sex with you. I wanted to make love to you.

I didn't want to intrude upon your life. I wanted to take care of you.

I didn’t expect to bond so deeply with someone, but I did.

I didn’t expect you to fulfill my every need, but you were a friend.

I didn’t expect to miss you so much, but I do.

I didn’t expect to ache at the loss, but knowing it doesn’t effect you the same, makes my soul scream.

I don’t suspect it will subside any time soon but I soldier on in hopes it does.

Things Have Changed

Out the window, blankly I stare
Falling leaves drift slowly to the ground
Barren trees standing silently in place
The melancholy of it all.
I think of happier times, happier places
knowing I can never return there again
Things have changed
Too many pieces of the happy missing from the puzzle of joy.
Profound loss, deep sadness saturate my being
There is no halting where life is heading
No stopping the march of time
Along for the ride, like it or not, ready or not.
I know what is coming and my soul aches.
Out the window, blankly I stare.
For at this moment, that is all I can do.

The End Is Near

Unsteady breaths.
The hope now faded.
There is no turning back from this.
It's grip too strong.
It's heels dug in deep.
Nothing more can be done.
Sadness colors everything.
Everything you do.
Everything you think.
There is no escaping.
No reprieves.
Just this moment.
Wondering if there will be another.
A final countdown that no one knows when will end.
Will it be sudden?
Or stretched to torturous lengths?
Will there be much pain?
There will be many tears.
More than can be counted.
The end is coming.
It is closer than it should be.
Everyone knows.
Especially him.

Better

Better times ahead they say.
They arrive too slowly and depart too quickly.
Waiting,wanting, needing
Something to give, to change
Just be different.
Everyday the same
Eat, Sleep, Work.
Where's the love?
More bills than paycheck.
More effort than returns.
Mind numbing,
Gut wrenching,
Heart breaking,
Life.
It gets better they say.
Yeah, right.
When?

Sweetly

I wanna lay you down in clouds of white

I wanna make love till dark turns to light

I wanna feel you wrapped around me tight

I want your whispers to tickle my ear

I wanna kiss away the past you fear

I wanna hold on to you my dear

Sweetly we drift into forever

Sweetly we slowly meld into the other

Sweetly our souls rejoice

Our saving grace is love

Our blessing is finding one another

Our happily ever after unfolds

One heartbeat at a time

One touch at a time

One moment at a time

That's All

A casual touch and a sly smile

sends my thoughts a racing.

Logic and consequence sweep away

in a wave of desire and lust

Some small deed or kind word

has my mind whirling at possibilities.

No mind whether right or wrong for me or us

just right now is all that matters

Here in this moment

lost in a haze of chance

All I see is happiness

All I feel is bliss

All I need is you

Dog vs. Man

Why having a dog is better than having a man.

1. Dogs love unconditionally.


2. If a dog is upset with you, you know why and it makes sense.


3. Dogs don't lie.


4. Dogs are affectionate.


5. Dogs are faithful to the very end.


6. Dogs don't cheat on you.


7. Dogs will always check up on you.


8. Dogs can't get close enough to you.


9. If a dog has issues, they are easier to fix.


10. Dogs are easier to train.


11. You always know where you stand with a dog.


12. You always know the dog will come back.


13. Dogs are always glad to see you whether gone for 30 minutes or 10 hours.


14. A dog is better at reading your moods.


15. A dog will let you know it's needs.