Meanderings

Just sitting here, with nothing to do since American Idol is on and not Glee. Well, I am thinking of a certain someone. Since I don't want to scare him away, I'm refraining from calling him. He is much more reserved than me, though Friday night showed an entirely different side of him I've never seen. (I liked it very much by the way.) I was surprised and delighted with it actually. My mind has taken me places I dare not dwell on. I don't want to jinx it, or push it. I want this to be a totally different approach to a relationship, if it should go there, than I've ever done before. I'm not sure where it will lead. I know when I talked to him Monday briefly, he said he "enjoyed it too. " Now whether that is on the same level or not, who knows for sure. Other conversations, emails and text lead me to believe so. In one in email, he did say "not to work so hard. He would have me over for cocktails" when his income picks up from his new job. (It's commission based.) I get the feeling he thinks he needs to spend money on me to keep me entertained. He don't. He makes me happy just being near. Of course, I've told him in so many words the same. I understand. I was in the same position not long ago myself.
He has never had a live in relationship. His last relationship lasted a year or so and was long distance. I've been in a couple of long term relationships that did involve living together. He is kinda inexperienced compared to me. Almost makes me feel like a slut. He's a good catholic boy. Close to his big family. (7 brothers and sisters.) He likes to country line dance, something I tried to learn years ago. He rarely goes out except to do that when the chance arises. I'd love to have him teach me. He's soft spoken, with a wicked sense of humor. He seems to get mine. I laugh all the time I'm with him. Oddly, he is the first guy I truly feel comfortable around. I still have my secrets as I'm sure he does, but over time I can see us sharing them. We are very open with each other in that cautious getting to know each other way. Surprised that something hasn't scared the hell out of him yet.