Thursday, March 10, 2011

Slow And Steady

I have worked with Tommy a few times since the "event". I thought it may be awkward. It wasn't. We continue to email, chat, text and call each other. I'm afraid of over doing it. I'm not as reserved as he is. I just do as I feel. He likes to think things through. Typical Gemini. And I'm typical Aries. The tone has changed from light hearted flirting to something deeper. I've shared some of my secrets as has he. We haven't had any time together, just us alone. It is always at work. His schedule is open, but mine is occupied by work and doing for my parents. He does stuff for his mother and with his family. I want to suggest stuff and do, but he is worried about money. I understand that. He is a bit of a control freak by his own admission. So me picking up the tab at this stage seems to not be favorable as far as he is concerned. I try to hold back and not push. It is very hard for me to do. When I meet someone I'm attracted to and really like, I'm full steam ahead until it's obvious they either don't feel the same way or there isn't any chance of it working. I'm still trying to figure it out with him.

Last Saturday, he, I and Jessica worked together. She overstepped a few boundaries that really pissed him off and bothered me as well. Tommy is a private person. He doesn't like everyone to know his business. I don't blame him. Jessica was ready to tell the world about the "event". Tommy didn't like that. It was a bit tense for a while. Tommy didn't want to discuss it with her. I stayed out of their way. He was a bit sulky, but still nice in a professional manner. Jessica also suggested me move in as a roommate to help with his expenses. I didn't like that too much. I don't think he did either, though he wasn't opposed to the idea either. Like he didn't want to say it was too early for that and maybe not as roommates. The same thing I was thinking but didn't say either. I just smiled and nodded.

Overall, things are moving along, still not sure of the exact direction. But numerous text, emails etc. lead me to believe he doesn't want to rush for whatever reason. I'm gonna be me. He is free to be him. I have no expectations. I don't require a response to everything I send him. He is worth the wait as far as I can tell. I certainly am. I'm ready to cuddle and at least have our first kiss. Hopefully it will come......soon.


wcs said...

Oh, it's so exciting, in a voyeuristic kind of way. I hope things go well for both of you, whatever that may entail. It's nice that you said, "I'm gonna be me." That's a great way to be.

Cubby said...

Ohhhh this is exciting. Is there a cheap or free date you can go on, to eliminate the issue of money? Perhaps a couple hours outdoors hiking or biking?

Peter said...

Bring your own sandwiches and coffee, or some other refreshments, home made is cheaper then store bought.

Your parents can have some alone-time too.

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