Reflections Of

I've been doing some thinking. About the past and the future. Neither thrills me at this point. Things seem the same to me. Well, almost the same. There is still so much to be done with my parents switching houses. I wonder if we will ever be done. I wonder if they think the same thing. Then we can start over again when construction starts on mine, at some point. And then fixing up the dump I live in now. It seems overwhelming. School is an endless drudge, but at least the finish line is in sight. May 7th can't get here fast enough. Of course, I doubt I get my certificate on one end of the stage and a job offer at the other. It would be a nice reprieve if it didn't take another extended period though to get something that uses what I've learned before I forget it. Those are the things that weight the heaviest upon me at the moment.

Then there is the social life to deal with. I have no idea when or if that will change any time soon. It all depends on the two issues mentioned above. I do have a clear plan for it, probably more so than the other issues. Time and money will be the major factors there. But when everything falls into place, I will venture out more than I have in the past. It will be a necessary evil, if I'm to meet anyone or make new friends. I think I can handle that. Compared to the other crap I've been through in the last decade, it will be a cake walk.

The only thing truly troubling me at the moment is just keeping up in school till the end of the semester. That takes a great deal of time and devotion. Time I have. Devotion I don't. The time spent on homework drives me nuts. It's is frustrating, especially the online class. It has gotten some what better after I sent the instructor a strongly worded email. I just need to get the stuff to her to get rid of the zeros. With so many computer problems, I've lost a few files I need. I'll be working this week to redo them. I had hope to get ahead in the class this week and be done with it, but ain't sure how that will work out. I'll just do what I can.

One thing I have learned in my life is how to eat an elephant. One bite at a time......and with a little bit of salt.