Where's The Party?

I have often dreamt of having a party in my new house when the time came. I wonder if anyone would come? I would like to think a few would show up, but you never know. I would hate to throw a party and no one came. I have had such limited contact with people over the years, maybe they wouldn't bother to come. Maybe they would have a better offer from someone they have had more contact with or feel closer too. I often wonder if they still consider me a friend or just someone that flitted through their life in no meaningful way. It would be great and a boost to my ego if I had made a mark in their life in some positive way. I think it is a bit sad that I can't say for sure that I have. I hope I have at least. I'm not overly concerned with the notion of an unattended party. Right now my life is in a bit of a holding pattern. I have so much going on and so many other things that will need my attention. I look forward to the day when all is done and I can get into a normal routine. The daily grind of a job is looking very attractive right now. Maybe then I can become the somewhat social butterfly I once was. Of course with those of my youth no longer here I will have to be start from scratch. Hopefully, I will still have my social graces and be considered interesting enough to be around. Only time will tell. In the meantime, my slow march forward will continue.