 
  Thursday, December 31, 2009
Time
 
  2010....Here We Come!
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Another Year Over...........
 The end of 2009 can't come quick enough for me. I'm ready to move on to the next phase of my life. I've got things to do! This year the biggest, bestest thing to happen to me was clearing my land, and passing both of my classes made me extremely happy, nothing else really knocked my socks of. It was a rather blase year. A repetition of all the previous without the death of anyone close. That is a plus. Thinking back over the year, it was an odd mixture of things. The bulk which centered around getting my parents settled into another place. It was all consuming and still is. I often wonder will we ever be finished with that transition? It has gone on for way too long, given my short attention span.
 The end of 2009 can't come quick enough for me. I'm ready to move on to the next phase of my life. I've got things to do! This year the biggest, bestest thing to happen to me was clearing my land, and passing both of my classes made me extremely happy, nothing else really knocked my socks of. It was a rather blase year. A repetition of all the previous without the death of anyone close. That is a plus. Thinking back over the year, it was an odd mixture of things. The bulk which centered around getting my parents settled into another place. It was all consuming and still is. I often wonder will we ever be finished with that transition? It has gone on for way too long, given my short attention span.2010 will mark a new decade. I seriously hope that it will be much better than the first in this new century. On a wider front, than just my personal stage, the world has experience some major crap itself. The Boxing Day tsunami, 9-11, the ensuing wars abroad, the Wall Street meltdown, the recession, Bush, the Birthers, Teabaggers, all the hateful groups against civil rights, Palin, the scandals, and the collapse of the GOP. This first decade was a doozy. It has left a bad taste in my mouth. Even the election of Obama and a few states joining the more enlightened places on the planet can't help alleviate the bitter after taste this decade leaves behind.
I sincerely hope for all the readers of my little ole blog, that 2010 is much better for all of us. Not just in the blog universe, but the world as well. That peace and truth will triumph over all the lies and violence. That we will once again be prosperous and employed. That wisdom and intellect will replace dogma and fear. I hope that every dream is realized for you. That every hope is made manifest. That you have the fortitude to see you through what ever may lie ahead of you this coming year. And that love, peace and joy accompany you ever step of the way.
Love A Blue Moon

Tuesday, December 29, 2009
Wringing Out The Old

Monday, December 28, 2009
Just Wondering
- Am I the only guy that watches porn with the sound off?
- Have you ever walked into a crowded room and wondered how many feet of dick surrounds you?
- Have you ever wondered why certain couples were together ?What was the attraction?
- Am I the only one that wishes they had X-ray vision?
- Am I the only one that doesn't understand the gay fascination with straight acting or supposedly gay for pay porn?
Long Ago

Sunday, December 27, 2009
Succumbing Bliss

Saturday, December 26, 2009
20 Things About Me
- I'm a romantic at heart. I love to be wooed. Come on too strong, and I'll resist.
- I always think the best of people, give the benefit of the doubt, until either proven wrong or it's too late.
- I trust easily and I'm often disappointed because of it.
- I have a wicked, twisted sense of humor. I love to laugh and love to make people laugh.
- My last true vacation, not unemployment, was in March 1989, to visit my best friend who moved to Tampa FL. I moved there in April.
- Some of my deepest hurts and disappointments have come from family and friends. I always forgive them, but never forget it, though I never mention it.
- Some of my deepest joys and triumphs have been with the same family and friends.
- If I like you, I consider you a friend always, whether we speak daily or years from now.
- Both loves of my life, were love at first sight. I still have very fond memories of both.
- I'm not as arrogant or conceited as most people think I am when we first meet.
- I'm very loyal and trust worthy. If I can do something for someone, I will.
- People tell me all sorts of secrets. I never repeat them. Maybe I should have been a bartender or therapist.
- I have had some very dark depressive episodes in my life. They fade, but not till much damage is done. Then I spend a year or more rebuilding my life.
- I'm very proud of my small town roots. They have shaped my values and who I am as a person.
- The most I ever weighted was 252 pounds, about 18 months ago. Now I'm down to 192. I hope to lose about 20 pounds more.
- I was in the best shape of my life when I was in my late 30's. I weighted 175. Had a 31 inch waist, a 44 inch chest and 10% body fat. I long for that again.
- I enjoy music. I love it. It soothes me and helps get me out of my head for a while.
- I have an IQ of 113. I hoped it was more. Guess I'm smarter than some and dumber than others.
- I like all types of guys. I'm drawn most to the stereotypical tall, dark and handsome ones. If they aren't funny and smart, forget it.
- I adore my family, my friends, my dog and my life. I think I'm very fortunate to have lived it thus far.
Just Wondering
- How to attract the attention of someone you are crushing on? It seems I've forgotten how to flirt, make friends, or otherwise engage other people.
- What makes my blog interesting? The pics, writing, or something else? Anything you would like to suggest?
- Are bad people born or created? Do they know they are bad?
- How do you tell if someone is just being nice or friendly or really interested in you? Are there signs to watch for? Is it possible to move from friendship to romance and how?
- Why is everything that is yummy and tasty, filled with so many calories?
Friday, December 25, 2009
I Melt
 
  Christmas Past

Christmas Greetings

Thursday, December 24, 2009
Upon a Midnight Clear
 Long ago, Christmas Eve was much more fun. As a child, like many others, I would eagerly anticipate the arrival of Santa Claus. As an adult, I would eagerly look forward to an evening spent with friends. Most of my friends at the time, spent Christmas Day with their families, so we were left to our our devices for Christmas Eve. We would gather together, either at some one's house for drinks and a movie or meet up at a restaurant for dinner and drinks, before heading out to a club. It really didn't matter what we did, those of us that didn't have obligations, were together for that evening. I have many fond memories of those times. Even while my ex and I were still together, the tradition continued. He would travel to his parents home and I was here to be with mine on Christmas Day. It worked for us for 10 years.
 Long ago, Christmas Eve was much more fun. As a child, like many others, I would eagerly anticipate the arrival of Santa Claus. As an adult, I would eagerly look forward to an evening spent with friends. Most of my friends at the time, spent Christmas Day with their families, so we were left to our our devices for Christmas Eve. We would gather together, either at some one's house for drinks and a movie or meet up at a restaurant for dinner and drinks, before heading out to a club. It really didn't matter what we did, those of us that didn't have obligations, were together for that evening. I have many fond memories of those times. Even while my ex and I were still together, the tradition continued. He would travel to his parents home and I was here to be with mine on Christmas Day. It worked for us for 10 years.Over the last several years, that little group has disappeared. Many of them have passed away, no longer here to celebrate, others have moved away and started their own traditions. My ex and I split 10 years ago and thus far, my heart hasn't been claimed by another. I now sit at home, for many years alone and melancholy, remembering all the great times of Christmases past. Now I have my dog, Izzy, to keep me company. I use to watch the TV specials and have a drink to honor the tradition. Now, without cable TV, or a converter box, I sit at the computer, checking emails, looking at blogs, waiting for a status to change on Facebook so I can comment, or eagerly checking for comments on my blogs to pass the time.
A lot has changed over the years. I have changed, some for the good, some maybe not so much. I keep things in perspective. It will not always be this way. I just need to get through school, get a job so I can become social again, meet new people to hang with. Get the house built one day and settle in to a routine. I still have much to do. Yes, while it is a bit lonely sometimes, especially with no invites coming my way these days and no money to speak of to venture out, I know this will pass. I can't wait to unleash myself upon the world again. Until then, I'll do my living through Facebook and Blogger, while the night plays host to untold millions of children's fantasies, realizing that those are what make it bearable when you grow older and life takes unexpected turns.
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
Season's Greetings
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
Where's The Party?
 I have often dreamt of having a party in my new house when the time came. I wonder if anyone would come? I would like to think a few would show up, but you never know. I would hate to throw a party and no one came. I have had such limited contact with people over the years, maybe they wouldn't bother to come. Maybe they would have a better offer from someone they have had more contact with or feel closer too. I often wonder if they still consider me a friend or just someone that flitted through their life in no meaningful way. It would be great and a boost to my ego if I had made a mark in their life in some positive way. I think it is a bit sad that I can't say for sure that I have. I hope I have at least. I'm not overly concerned with the notion of an unattended party. Right now my life is in a bit of a holding pattern. I have so much going on and so many other things that will need my attention. I look forward to the day when all is done and I can get into a normal routine. The daily grind of a job is looking very attractive right now. Maybe then I can become the somewhat social butterfly I once was. Of course with those of my youth no longer here I will have to be start from scratch. Hopefully, I will still have my social graces and be considered interesting enough to be around. Only time will tell. In the meantime, my slow march forward will continue.
 I have often dreamt of having a party in my new house when the time came. I wonder if anyone would come? I would like to think a few would show up, but you never know. I would hate to throw a party and no one came. I have had such limited contact with people over the years, maybe they wouldn't bother to come. Maybe they would have a better offer from someone they have had more contact with or feel closer too. I often wonder if they still consider me a friend or just someone that flitted through their life in no meaningful way. It would be great and a boost to my ego if I had made a mark in their life in some positive way. I think it is a bit sad that I can't say for sure that I have. I hope I have at least. I'm not overly concerned with the notion of an unattended party. Right now my life is in a bit of a holding pattern. I have so much going on and so many other things that will need my attention. I look forward to the day when all is done and I can get into a normal routine. The daily grind of a job is looking very attractive right now. Maybe then I can become the somewhat social butterfly I once was. Of course with those of my youth no longer here I will have to be start from scratch. Hopefully, I will still have my social graces and be considered interesting enough to be around. Only time will tell. In the meantime, my slow march forward will continue.This Time Next Year
 
 At this time of the year, I often think about the approaching new year and what I hope it brings. Or at least what I can try to bring to fruition. This year is no different. This past year seems to have instigated some changes that will certainly carry forward. The first part of the year will be consumed with finishing up my Web Design Certificate, and maybe the start of another depending on the job market and other factors. I will continue to help my parents get things completed around their new place and ready the old place to put up for sale. There is still a shop to be built, a deck to add, a green house to move and all the landscaping for the back yard to be done. I personally still want to loose a few more pounds. Currently I'm at 192. I'd like to see that move lower to 170 or 175. Also, I like to get started working out again to tone up, provided I can make some space to get to the home gym in my spare bedroom. There is lots to do around my little place as well. That is a post in itself I think. Then sometime next year, I hope to get a job if the economy has improved. I'm hopefully that somehow it will all work out with all the other things that need to be done. And last, but not lest, I hope to start construction on my own place. While the tentative goal is to have it completed and moved into by the end of 2010, flexibility is key. I hate to push it back further, but given the odd real estate market, school, hopefully a job, and all left to do here and for my parents, it remains to be seen if we can squeeze in such a large project. I'll just have to see how everything else progresses through the year. Until all the other stuff is taken care of, I don't see me getting out and about much socially next year, though I will try to fit something in occasionally. That will limit my chances of meeting anyone I'm sure, but it would be one less complication in an otherwise overloaded calender. At this point, the to do list seems just as long as ever, but the items are certainly a bit more fun. It seems that 2010 will be another great year of change but one of some completion as well. I think it will turn out just swell!
Monday, December 21, 2009
Reward
Saturday, December 19, 2009
Winter Solstice
 December 21st is moving quick upon us, the Winter Solstice. It's fascinating to think how so many ancient cultures figured all this astronomy stuff out. It marks the reversal of the days shortening and nights lengthening. It represents the transition of the earth's axial tilt from being the farthest away from the sun, to moving to the closest. On Monday, December 21st, 2009, it will take place at 6:47 EST. I'm excited! Are you?
 December 21st is moving quick upon us, the Winter Solstice. It's fascinating to think how so many ancient cultures figured all this astronomy stuff out. It marks the reversal of the days shortening and nights lengthening. It represents the transition of the earth's axial tilt from being the farthest away from the sun, to moving to the closest. On Monday, December 21st, 2009, it will take place at 6:47 EST. I'm excited! Are you?Morning!
 Well, I seem to have grasped the commenting problem but unsure what to do to correct it. It seems after doing some searching for answers, Blogger is having issues that are scattered about. I have learned to check not only my dashboard, where the comments should be, but also under the comment moderation tab, where they had never been before. I also have to check both places twice. Once to find them, and again after publishing to make sure they were in fact published. While all this is a bit of pain, I'm glad to know where they are, how to find them, but most importantly, that my readers are still leaving comments. Life can now resume!
 Well, I seem to have grasped the commenting problem but unsure what to do to correct it. It seems after doing some searching for answers, Blogger is having issues that are scattered about. I have learned to check not only my dashboard, where the comments should be, but also under the comment moderation tab, where they had never been before. I also have to check both places twice. Once to find them, and again after publishing to make sure they were in fact published. While all this is a bit of pain, I'm glad to know where they are, how to find them, but most importantly, that my readers are still leaving comments. Life can now resume!Friday, December 18, 2009
Hello!

My Christmas List

- New sweatpants and sweatshirts
- New flannel lounge pants
- Socks
- The new Harry Potter DVD
- A job (hehe)
Told you it would be a short list.
Thursday, December 17, 2009
God Is Watching

I have yet to find any solid, definitive answer. I know what the Bible in it's mutilated form says. I understand the concept of faith. I grasp the concept of free will. I believe there in lies the answers to those burning questions. If God intervenes every time, where does faith come in? There is a difference in knowing something and having faith in something. If free will exist for evil it must exist for good as well, and by extension, for every shade in between. Maybe it is more a case of evil being more convinced or embolden than those of truth and righteousness. Maybe it has come to the fact that not getting involved is believed to be right. The problem with that is where does one draw the line? Where does one decide that being quietly on the sidelines in a neutral position is no longer an option? If history is any indicator, it would seem that when evil is firmly established and becoming a personal threat. It would seem that evil has firmer faith in it's convictions than good.
Maybe our faith in God or some Higher Power to deliver us is to blame. The same thing that gives us strength also becomes our weakness. We fail to put our free will and our God given intellect to good use. Those are the unbeatable weapons against evil that God has given us. Instead, we prefer to be told what to do and when to do, than take responsibility and start it ourselves. Thankfully, there are those among us around the world that see it differently. And they are on the side of goodness, truth and righteousness. We call these people activist, liberals, and free thinkers. The history books are full of their stories. The ones that spoke out first, that raised the alarm, that got the ball rolling, that waited for the rest of us to reach the same conclusion that something had to be done. I, myself, am deeply thankful for them. I think more of us should join their ranks sooner, rather than later. The easiest way to be rid of a cancer is to catch it early and treat it aggressively and with tenacity. All acts of evil should be a call to arms and dealt with swiftly and harshly.
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
The Ugly Truth
 Creating ugly isn't easy. Ugliness takes planning and a great deal of effort. One must put aside for a moment the natural tendency to make better any wrong. To side step truth and create a different narrative with circular logic to achieve the heinous effect desired. One must also develop a clever skill of concealment. It would appear that anyone can do this, if they have a vested interest in the outcome. Governments, religions, institutions, politicians, leaders of every stripe have under taken this mission. Somehow, they reasoned it was worth the effort to lie, distort, misinform, malign, or circumvent what was truthful, what was beautiful. History is full of these deeds and their perpetrators duly noted. Tales of how it went down, who didn't speak up, those who turned a blind eye to the ugly truth of what was happening are there in the margins. Recent events, here in this country and abroad clearly shows that those evil ways are still being propagated, without much pressure to cease. A strongly worded press release or embargo will only do so much. For those who do resist the evil tide, the weary fight is usually alone, or they are ill equipped to handle it. The beauty of mankind's humanity has a stain. It has soaked to the very fibers of a country's being. While time will expose all ugly deeds to the intense scrutiny of daylight, and will gradually fade, it will still be visible upon close inspection. Are the ones responsible for creating and maintaining beauty in this world, creative enough, strong enough, to cover over the stain with a new pattern to blend it away? Or will it become a scar for humanity to stare at over time while trying to recall how it happened? Those uglies have persisted throughout history around the world. Once, this nation was seen as great. We had moved beyond the ugly portions of our collective past. We considered ourselves enlightened, smarter, diligent, industrious, a world leader. We followed no one, they followed us. Now we are backsliding. The world community looks at us and wonders why we don't see what is plainly happening in front of our faces. They pity us. They mock us. They are waiting, like vultures to pounce at our demise. The ugly truth is we allowed all this to happen. We stayed silent and passive. We let incompetence rule the land and ignorance become vogue. The greatest question now is, will we allow it to continue?
 Creating ugly isn't easy. Ugliness takes planning and a great deal of effort. One must put aside for a moment the natural tendency to make better any wrong. To side step truth and create a different narrative with circular logic to achieve the heinous effect desired. One must also develop a clever skill of concealment. It would appear that anyone can do this, if they have a vested interest in the outcome. Governments, religions, institutions, politicians, leaders of every stripe have under taken this mission. Somehow, they reasoned it was worth the effort to lie, distort, misinform, malign, or circumvent what was truthful, what was beautiful. History is full of these deeds and their perpetrators duly noted. Tales of how it went down, who didn't speak up, those who turned a blind eye to the ugly truth of what was happening are there in the margins. Recent events, here in this country and abroad clearly shows that those evil ways are still being propagated, without much pressure to cease. A strongly worded press release or embargo will only do so much. For those who do resist the evil tide, the weary fight is usually alone, or they are ill equipped to handle it. The beauty of mankind's humanity has a stain. It has soaked to the very fibers of a country's being. While time will expose all ugly deeds to the intense scrutiny of daylight, and will gradually fade, it will still be visible upon close inspection. Are the ones responsible for creating and maintaining beauty in this world, creative enough, strong enough, to cover over the stain with a new pattern to blend it away? Or will it become a scar for humanity to stare at over time while trying to recall how it happened? Those uglies have persisted throughout history around the world. Once, this nation was seen as great. We had moved beyond the ugly portions of our collective past. We considered ourselves enlightened, smarter, diligent, industrious, a world leader. We followed no one, they followed us. Now we are backsliding. The world community looks at us and wonders why we don't see what is plainly happening in front of our faces. They pity us. They mock us. They are waiting, like vultures to pounce at our demise. The ugly truth is we allowed all this to happen. We stayed silent and passive. We let incompetence rule the land and ignorance become vogue. The greatest question now is, will we allow it to continue?Monday, December 14, 2009
Mea Culpa

I need some sort of income, but yet still have to find the time to help my parents ready their house for market, build a shop for my father, move a greenhouse, and start construction on my place, all the while job hunting, taking more classes and hopefully, living some sort of life. It is really a catch 22. Something has to give, I just am not sure what. My parents can't help me out forever, nor can they spend big bucks to get everything in order by paying someone else big bucks to do it. I'm cheap labor. On the other hand, I need a job, but require real computer skills to land it. If I managed to find any job at all, it limits the time to do everything else. Everything impinges on something else. It's a convoluted mess. I'm stuck in the middle of it. Damned if I do, damned if I don't. I know it will work itself out. Everything will fall into place in it's own time. I just wish I could see it coming a bit more clearly.
Magical Time
 Have you ever really listened to the falling snow? It reminds me of little angel kisses as it slowly drifts down. Falling sleet sounds like the tinkling of fairy wings or what I imagine them sounding like as they flutter. Days are shorter, the nights longer. There is a quietness, a stillness that wraps you up, and holds you. It calms the soul, and quiets the mind. I love this time of year. The pace seems to slow and appreciation seems deeper for all the things we rushed by the rest of the year. Homes are deliberately made cozier by hearth and candlelight. We really want our guest to be happy and feel special when they visit. Extra attention is lavished on everything from dinner menus, to mantels, to lawn ornaments. The holiday season brings out the warmest wishes. It squeezes us together with familial ties. We are more accepting, more forgiving, more tolerant. The trimmings and trappings conspire against us to be more than we are the rest of the year. We make time for family and friends like once again they are important to us, instead of delaying visits and phone calls. Amazing what this time of the year does to people. The most magical time of the year.
 Have you ever really listened to the falling snow? It reminds me of little angel kisses as it slowly drifts down. Falling sleet sounds like the tinkling of fairy wings or what I imagine them sounding like as they flutter. Days are shorter, the nights longer. There is a quietness, a stillness that wraps you up, and holds you. It calms the soul, and quiets the mind. I love this time of year. The pace seems to slow and appreciation seems deeper for all the things we rushed by the rest of the year. Homes are deliberately made cozier by hearth and candlelight. We really want our guest to be happy and feel special when they visit. Extra attention is lavished on everything from dinner menus, to mantels, to lawn ornaments. The holiday season brings out the warmest wishes. It squeezes us together with familial ties. We are more accepting, more forgiving, more tolerant. The trimmings and trappings conspire against us to be more than we are the rest of the year. We make time for family and friends like once again they are important to us, instead of delaying visits and phone calls. Amazing what this time of the year does to people. The most magical time of the year.What Season is Your Soul Connected to?
| Your Soul Is Connected to the Spring | 
|  You are an optimistic, eternally hopeful person. No matter how dark things get, you always see the light. You are open-minded and always up for a fresh outlook on life. You don't cling to ideas or beliefs. You are sweet hearted and have good intentions. Even though you've seen a lot in life, you remain innocent. People see you as playful and even a bit airy. You feel free to be yourself, and that's a beautiful thing. | 
 
 






























 
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